Yesterday I signed Mom into hospice. She started to downslide seriously late last week, and hasn’t showed signs of grabbing at branches. The goal of hospice is to make her comfortable, and who knows? Being comfortable may make her better, but so far it only allows her to sleep without outward signs of pain.
The doctor came to the nursing home yesterday because she was in such pain and so weak that moving her didn’t make sense, and he made a comment that I love. He said “She was born in an era when they built things to last, and she is going to last until she can’t fight anymore.” We have said goodbye to her several times over the last year and she has come back each time. I don’t know if she will this time, but I continue to pray for healing or release.
Oh, dear. I feel for you. It is difficult to be caught between what you want and what is reality. Deep down, we all want our mothers to be there for us.
ReplyDeleteWow, what a hard decision to make. This last year has been one crazy roller coaster. This ride has taken you up and down many times, and as much as you try to anticipate the next crazy turn, in reality you can only hold on tight (and may scream a bit for good measure).
ReplyDeleteYou continue to be in our prayers.